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i feeling alive all over again, as deep as my scar under my skin, like being in love, she say for the first time.....oh yeah...nice...feel for the first time for the first time..... ^.^
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Sensation
Recently i felt out that the beat from my heart had back to the start.
is me again, a happy emo now
but~~~~
the love one, is not with me....
i always told myself that, is ok, i will be there very soon to him....
can back to our life with each other...
no need both of us always waiting who's gonna to online...
Me~~~
as long as, go to college, assignment, revision...
i didn't go anywhere, no entertain...
got things want to share with my close friends, but she working, only someday we both met each...
i don't know who i should talk to...
so i wrote here..to talk to myself.
Steph...
i miss him, miss him so much...
which the time that can running to MAY...now!!!
sometime i alone walking down the street, see a lot of couples...
i rather, silent~~~
but i so admire them, they so sweet, walk together, talk together, laugh together,
but me, and i know how his feel is same as i...
so admire that they can contact anytime...
but lucky will still got contact to each other too...
sometimes..i feel like i'm already lucky one, better than far long distance, difference timing couples...
why should i moaning about...
na~~~~~~
just need someone to talk to...
i guess is me, is me talk to myself...
my birthday is coming this weekend and he is not with me...
although i told him that i'm alright, but my heart....
is okay,
at least go my family with me...
no mood to celebrate with my friends at all...
because my mind just for him....
hope can see him, touch him, kiss him or even a hug...
i wish that i have a "wishing door", that once open the door can reach to him immediately...
i never blame the god, because god always is fair to us...
.....
stop crying now....
why don't i just started to do is;
patient,
endure,
be happy,
be strong,
waiting,
is us to continue now our FATE, we should write our FATE not our friend and not even god either.....
is our FATE...Both of us~~~
Someone say, "FATE"..is not just sitting here and wait, it is you go create them...
create that it just like your dream to be.
rationale~~~
so i should start my dream, and to fulfill it...
Run to you dream and caught it.
To Believe, and expecting.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
the better quotes to you
Sorry that i did not know you are trying to make me turning back to you as old time...
but too bad, i didn't even saw once of your action that you were trying to make me turning back.
plus for me, don't you know that this is the scar in my heart...is hard to forget and i need some time to cover it...
don't your sister tell you? how i feel...and don't you know that how she say try to give you a chance, can be the old time again...,did she tell you???
that time i was know that, it was not your fault because you never know the truth...at my back...
and did you ever know i that i give you a chance because of her but you... and i already insist that even become a friends, i may keep the distance with you and "things that never be the same" again....
and did you know that, i make up my mind to reply your message and chat awhile to you??? because i know that you were trying to talk to me...only "that time". so i should be a manners that to reply you...
and did you know that, why i told you " call me steph will be better", sorry that is it obviously that can't be the same again, and my heart can't accept "you" as my sister again...so PLEASE DON'T CALL ME SIS"...
AND NOW,
YOU USING BACK AN OLD TIME THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO TALK TO....SECOND TIME YOU USING JOHN TO SCOLD ME BACK!!!
1st time, i understand that why you will so angry to me because of him often came to my house chat with and sharing his song to me....never mind then....i forget about it...because even he call me sister that i'm still a female in between on him so you will be no happy....
2nd time, you say is me to tempt him out because "i want go to clubbing"...FUCK!!! Don't you ever blame me without knowing any fucking things...i know you never satisfy me that everything i done to you and him...
i don't have ever invited you guys to go with us to the pub because i know the fucking thing that you always told me that you DISLIKE him he go pub!!!!
OKay let me show you little Girl, that night me and my love had promise me to go for fun at night....he told me invited friends to go, but to bad no one are going that night,and because of he say he promise and just only both of us go, so he call your husband to join us....but who knows your husband no matter what that he still wanted to go...and start argue, that time i don't know anything after my love told that, better cancel and not to go...but like you say is too late...duh!!!
then after that my friends suddenly call me back, go participants that we only go out again....that's the story it happend...you do not know
but still i admit that my love because of me and he had promise me, so we go by ourselves...and i didn't blame him why he call your husband and make unhappy thing on you....and i didn't mean told you to blame my love, just blame me as you always like to blame me......
I'm sorry DUHHHHH!!!! to make you sad that time....and thanks for your true confession that you are really not satisfy me all the time, i already knew it....
On the other hand, sometimes that does make me feel no quite happy it because that you always find my love but me...even in the chat box too...
you also will get angry because of your husband always go to my house that time and scold me too....
hey!!!! me also will do the same too... i do also will feel angry because of you sometimes.
because even you call him fiancées before, that you still a girl in between a boy...
Don't you ever feel so uncomfortable even his friends or his sister call him and close to him???
i think you know stupid at all....
well thanks for your true words...that NOW I ONLY KNOW WHAT YOU SAY YOU TRYING BEFORE BUT ACTUALLY DIDN'T...
NO NEED THANK TO ME, NOW I FEEL I JUST REALLY UNLUCKY ONLY.
WISH YOU AND HIM SWEET AND EVERLASTING LOVE TOO....
but too bad, i didn't even saw once of your action that you were trying to make me turning back.
plus for me, don't you know that this is the scar in my heart...is hard to forget and i need some time to cover it...
don't your sister tell you? how i feel...and don't you know that how she say try to give you a chance, can be the old time again...,did she tell you???
that time i was know that, it was not your fault because you never know the truth...at my back...
and did you ever know i that i give you a chance because of her but you... and i already insist that even become a friends, i may keep the distance with you and "things that never be the same" again....
and did you know that, i make up my mind to reply your message and chat awhile to you??? because i know that you were trying to talk to me...only "that time". so i should be a manners that to reply you...
and did you know that, why i told you " call me steph will be better", sorry that is it obviously that can't be the same again, and my heart can't accept "you" as my sister again...so PLEASE DON'T CALL ME SIS"...
AND NOW,
YOU USING BACK AN OLD TIME THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO TALK TO....SECOND TIME YOU USING JOHN TO SCOLD ME BACK!!!
1st time, i understand that why you will so angry to me because of him often came to my house chat with and sharing his song to me....never mind then....i forget about it...because even he call me sister that i'm still a female in between on him so you will be no happy....
2nd time, you say is me to tempt him out because "i want go to clubbing"...FUCK!!! Don't you ever blame me without knowing any fucking things...i know you never satisfy me that everything i done to you and him...
i don't have ever invited you guys to go with us to the pub because i know the fucking thing that you always told me that you DISLIKE him he go pub!!!!
OKay let me show you little Girl, that night me and my love had promise me to go for fun at night....he told me invited friends to go, but to bad no one are going that night,and because of he say he promise and just only both of us go, so he call your husband to join us....but who knows your husband no matter what that he still wanted to go...and start argue, that time i don't know anything after my love told that, better cancel and not to go...but like you say is too late...duh!!!
then after that my friends suddenly call me back, go participants that we only go out again....that's the story it happend...you do not know
but still i admit that my love because of me and he had promise me, so we go by ourselves...and i didn't blame him why he call your husband and make unhappy thing on you....and i didn't mean told you to blame my love, just blame me as you always like to blame me......
I'm sorry DUHHHHH!!!! to make you sad that time....and thanks for your true confession that you are really not satisfy me all the time, i already knew it....
On the other hand, sometimes that does make me feel no quite happy it because that you always find my love but me...even in the chat box too...
you also will get angry because of your husband always go to my house that time and scold me too....
hey!!!! me also will do the same too... i do also will feel angry because of you sometimes.
because even you call him fiancées before, that you still a girl in between a boy...
Don't you ever feel so uncomfortable even his friends or his sister call him and close to him???
i think you know stupid at all....
well thanks for your true words...that NOW I ONLY KNOW WHAT YOU SAY YOU TRYING BEFORE BUT ACTUALLY DIDN'T...
NO NEED THANK TO ME, NOW I FEEL I JUST REALLY UNLUCKY ONLY.
WISH YOU AND HIM SWEET AND EVERLASTING LOVE TOO....
Saturday, February 5, 2011
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