Peaceful and freedom, wish to forget

Finally after the break up and the exam has pass away..i totally feel so relaxing and no such of any burden.

for me, i should choose to disappear for myself because haizzz...we are lover before but now is my ex already... when i saw him online...i which to offline...ya, this feel is normal when happen any case like break up. so better keep a distance and let the time pass by....

for me i feel that i had insist to hurt him, that now i am a sinner...for me to let go is waiting the time goes by...i can't forget because it happen...and i never turning back to hurt him twice again. do you think is very fun to hurting a person...i bet no everyone is wanted to be...

even my friends also try to calling me out to make me feel better. and thanks to them i really feel what the feel are "Relax" since this semester start till now. all the time i feel so within to keep myself in the house...maybe that time i was in love... and love is blind will cause anyone will willing to do anything about it.

but after that, i feel so peaceful and suddenly freedom had come back to me again. this feel that i had long time didnt feel already....
whoa, this i didnt mean that when i was in love that i got no peaceful and freedom..please reader don't mistook.

peaceful for me is i feel "silent", had lost one who caring before, now i'm all independence again, and i rather be independence woman...
freedom for me i feel "anything and everything i can do", very difference to me and will trying to habit again about this independence life.

but for me i can do much things that for my future, now i was very patient to wait my future call that which is mean i getting oversea to training, working and start my independence life. if i can do it, i which i can go more a bit further once i have my own business....

business business, social is me gonna to do now...and hope and i forgot it as soon as possible that i can, my decision and my pass...i wish can throw all away, and tell them i'm good thanks for the concern.

i can't lie anyone, but please people do not lie to me...

i try my hard to forget and to let go and disappear in front of you. feel that i don't have the right's to be old time again...

am i avoiding?? i feel that i just can't hurt him again so i rather be quite or better disappear.

leaving sensation of my last quotes

i think about very long time about this question about breaking up with him....
although why he keep asking me why i will break up with him... there only one reason i will decide because of my sadness and disappointed...and i losing my feel to him...

why he keep asking me we been together that long, and how he had spend his times, money on me...so far for me i also had spend my time to him and money too....

why he can keep asking, why on my friend birthday, i can hug him, kiss him but the others days i don't....can't he feel that i was trying my best to getting my feel back to me. since he come back to accompany on march...

why he will keep asking me, why i only tell the truth to him that late that makes him hurt that much, hello, u think i'm not hurt?? u think i just simply requested to break up it because of no feel anymore. i hurt more than once it is really need to take time to put it away, even i let you see i'm feeling nothing....pretend to be strong thats my styles......

do you know, i cry every night that without telling you, every time we argue, even we break up i also had cry everyday...so pain, like a knife had stick into my heart...

if u insist say so, i can say that why you never tell me the truth that you going to Singapore that time?? we should better end till that way, it will makes us not feel that fucking hurt anymore....you can say i can simply end our relationship, find that i never mind...

if we never start then we feel more better than now.....

yeah, i admit that day i told i'm not feel at all, but after break up, i very guilty because i'm insist that i had hurt you since you the first time in love....i don't what the feel is that, feel?? or just sympathy???

i'm not a good girlfriend, i'm very selfish, no sense of generous and humor... don't know how to make joy to him...

i don't want to be with since i got no feel on him...because it is unfair to him... better separate that both of us can calm down, and start our new life again...

i'm ready to cut my hands of for suicide..just think but didn't really wanna to try..

i'm just know that my hurt is weak, tire already, just don't hurt me...

aiksss...i suddenly no stress after i had tell that i wanted to tell to....nothing about this aynway...i just wanna scream~~~~~~~~

i will disappear awhile, good for me.....

it remind me how i love him once that i ever have, he had gave me what is the meaning of love....

i love him, that is true but now..haizzzz i can even can explain why?? no one knows...

love is so such of miracle, when it's come, it's came so sweet and suddenly, when it's gone, i can't accept why it is gone...so soon.....and hurt's in my life....

i'm tire....my spirit are tire....
我没有后悔曾经我们有过那段回忆，我也没有抱怨过什么。。。因为曾用心去爱过。。。

既然我败了一段美好的爱情在自己的手中，接下来看缘分了。。如果我们还有缘分再相遇，或许还可以继续下去下一段的感情
~~~~~rest in peace~~~~~~

Friends

i wait for you to give me sign

you tire me,

about how you feel, how your heart works

i just to need for sure.

IF.

i ask you out, would you smile say yes??

IF.

i share my things to you, would you share with me??

IF.

i believe you, would you believe me??

IF.

then i sing a song to you, would you told me to sing again.

~~Friends~~

there have so many things that i need to know,

what make you strong, what makes you break, what do you love, what do you hate.

what make you laugh, what makes you cry, i need to know,

i need to know.

IF.

i ask you out, would you smile say yes??

IF.

i share my things to you, would you share with me??

IF.

i believe you, would you believe me???

IF.

then i sing a song to you, would you told me to sing again.

~~Friends~~

Hurts

Now i see, i see that:

Everybody hurt someday,

is okay to be afraid,

everybody scream,

everybody feels this way,

then say that's okay....

just say that's okay.

some many question of your mind,

many question that need to know.

when things happen might need to know what is begin of the answer, and how the end of the answers is...

TRUTH

had came out everyone mind...

EXPLANATION

hope can makes things right

SEE

can see is that the truth or false in your own eyes without heard any one of your friends language.

FEEL

feel that what u had feel and how u feel to.

calm down, when anytime get hurts, calm down, when every time u feels sad, if it happen even close your eyes can't even stop your anger, your sadness, your tears...

why don't you just go scream...

scream then let go your anger then you feel so good to be calm again.

some times, when problem come from other parties, it giving you a frustration and you don't know how to do, and you wish to know the truth....

i can't say to go ask why, because if the parties does not willing to tell the truth. i can't do anything, only if you point in front of the parties head with a gun, but this is impossible to be happening.

you are strongest than before, no things defeat you at least you defeat yourself~~~~

hold on tide!!!!!

To the parties(boy):

wish the parties who understand how the innocent people who done to him before.

wish the parties grow up fast,

see who the person you really need to cherish for...

the person hurts you before, if you can't forget, please just let go...

because not one force you to forget, but look forward....there have no time machine to let you go back before even how you miss it, time is golden but also is very cruelness.

now they have some one better than before you meet, why don't you let go the part and start for new life???

is that hard from you???

people say time can let go your pain, is true...me is an example!!!

don't let the pass bother you, it can't make you grow up only just stay at the same place...

no one who willing to wait you, only the one who wait you, and it is with you now.