Peaceful and freedom, wish to forget

Finally after the break up and the exam has pass away..i totally feel so relaxing and no such of any burden.

for me, i should choose to disappear for myself because haizzz...we are lover before but now is my ex already... when i saw him online...i which to offline...ya, this feel is normal when happen any case like break up. so better keep a distance and let the time pass by....

for me i feel that i had insist to hurt him, that now i am a sinner...for me to let go is waiting the time goes by...i can't forget because it happen...and i never turning back to hurt him twice again. do you think is very fun to hurting a person...i bet no everyone is wanted to be...

even my friends also try to calling me out to make me feel better. and thanks to them i really feel what the feel are "Relax" since this semester start till now. all the time i feel so within to keep myself in the house...maybe that time i was in love... and love is blind will cause anyone will willing to do anything about it.

but after that, i feel so peaceful and suddenly freedom had come back to me again. this feel that i had long time didnt feel already....
whoa, this i didnt mean that when i was in love that i got no peaceful and freedom..please reader don't mistook.

peaceful for me is i feel "silent", had lost one who caring before, now i'm all independence again, and i rather be independence woman...
freedom for me i feel "anything and everything i can do", very difference to me and will trying to habit again about this independence life.

but for me i can do much things that for my future, now i was very patient to wait my future call that which is mean i getting oversea to training, working and start my independence life. if i can do it, i which i can go more a bit further once i have my own business....

business business, social is me gonna to do now...and hope and i forgot it as soon as possible that i can, my decision and my pass...i wish can throw all away, and tell them i'm good thanks for the concern.

i can't lie anyone, but please people do not lie to me...

i try my hard to forget and to let go and disappear in front of you. feel that i don't have the right's to be old time again...

am i avoiding?? i feel that i just can't hurt him again so i rather be quite or better disappear.